I never knew a love, love, love, a love like this Gotta be something for me to write this A living testimony just sharing my story Talking about my life and giving God all the Glory If I could I would open up the pages of my rhymbook Expose every wrong path that my life took I'm not ashamed of where I came from Chicago IL Humboldt Park is where I came up Not a pretty hood But I must say dispite the crimerate my parents did pretty good Sometimes I look back and think it isn't real 12 years later I've returned to my missionfield Trying to be an axample to the youngstas Cuz I remeber growing up amungst the hustlas Couldn't really play where the kids played Beat up, then jacked, and jumped and shot at all before the 5th grade When they start shooting get out the cars way Something that my homey Big C leanred the hardway That's why I dedicate my life to my youth Cuz a couple years ago I walked in ya shoes There's a old sayin that go/you can run but you can't hide/ So whats the point of putting up a fight/ His light shines bright so you'll always see Him/ And you're made in His image so you always be Him/ I know/the otha lifes such a temptation/ It'll lead you down a road full of devastation/ So stop contemplatin/ Lack of motivation/ Equal lots of stress and tons of frustration/ Get from under the shade and recognize/ That Jesus Christ came to save all our lives/ It's a love we cant predict or deny/ And it's only by his grace I'm alive/ Tryna be a light in the darkness/ I'm a true minister never been an artist/ And that's why I dedicate my life to the youth/ Cuz a couple yrs ago, I walked in shoes/ I could never forget about your love and grace Cuz when u hung on the cross you took my place And in the garden I know u saw my face My lifes replaced cuz of u my inner thugs erased This feelings great and I'm willing to share No other God can carry the burdens that he's willing to bear To all my people who mad living the thug life Everything you did was forgiven when they hung christ To all my drug dealers let field know That my lord is raw yeah he's real dope To all my people who hooked to the block I know a God that'll get you hook to the rock But you don't understand church cause the abuse I won't rap religion I preach Christ in the booth That's why I dedicate my life to the youth Cuz a couple years ago I walked in your shoes

I’m a never gone stop I’m a continue to rock I’m a grab this mic And I’m a make it hot Im a continue to teach Close the gap lets us reach Take the gospel from the church and bring it to the streets From the windy city to the rest of the world I gotta message that needs to be heard About a man who was born as a slave Who was betrayed by the same gang he was destined to save You was beaten and slain, treated as lame He would be hung unloved but after 3 he would raise And no one believed it so they called it insane Until the roman sojas rolled away the stone from his grave Mary ran back and told peter he rose But he didn’t believe her till they saw him next to the door Many argue this is fake but I swear its legit When he was killed he took the bill and all of the tip He had to get dirty so that we can be clean Cuz we’d never be able to do such a thing Jesus died on the cross so that we could be free From this legalistic bondage thats on everything I’m a never gone stop I’m a continue to rock I’m a grab this mic And I’m a make it hot Im a continue to teach Close the gap lets us reach Take the gospel from the church and bring it to the streets I’m in a zone some call it then twin cities Home is downtown right next to the Mississippi Ministry is rough people its getting gritty La Vic, Lighthouse, & Hi-Def they riding with me We got Somalis down the block who don’t know the Lord So its my job to make sure they know the lord They tripped out when they found out I was Christian Basketball is the perfect tool for evangelism We gotta Mung community in our community I can see the Lord working in them beautifully Buddhist, Atheist and the nation of Islam/ They all in my back yard handle your biz God/ Gimme the words that you want me to use/ Cuz to be quite blunt I can be kinda rude/ So Lord I’m a move right out of the way/ So you can do what you came to do like back in the day I’m a never gone stop I’m a continue to rock I’m a grab this mic And I’m a make it hot Im a continue to teach Close the gap lets us reach Take the gospel from the church and bring it to the streets Go out make disciples of all nations But not just overseas I’m talking about all nations Turkey, India I don’t know what yall facing I’ll pray for yall but what about our nation The 10/40 window is the topic of interest How you tryna save the world but not the city you live in Gangbangers on the corners they need to saved And hookers up the street need to know that they can be changed Little boys need to know that life is more than a box And that there future is more than 3 hots and a cot Girls need to know that they priceless Don’t give yourself away to any man no matter how much you like him It’s a tuff job how many people willing to work Cuz a lot of these people will never be in a church When the lord says ready people are willing to go But of the Lord says stay I hope you willing to show that you You never gone stop Always lifting the rock Hop n this mic Give them love never stop Continue to teach Close the gap so you can reach Take the gospel from the church and bring it to the streets

I used to love you good, I used to love you strong I loved even when my mother and father told me that you were wrong They said you’d be the end of me Never thought that something I loved so much would end up becoming my enemy You promised that you would be there for me everyday You said that you would come and take my pain away Told me you’d comfort me cuz God didn’t hear me pray No More Rainy Dayz had me feeling like Mary J You knew about the pain in my heart so played with it They say when you make your bed you gotta lay in it For the last 20 years I been living this We started off safe til I was raped of innocence I was 4 years old man you should of knew better Took advantage of my age girl you should of knew better I heard you were looking for me leave me alone I found something better a shelter by his throne We met when I was young told me you were my friend If that’s the case then why you tryna bring me death I caught you cheating one time and it made me cry Manipulation had me thinking that you were mine I mean you were hurting me and it would show But I was getting the attention I wasn’t getting at home You controlled every part of me they way I thought The way I walked, they way I talked, until my father came downstairs and we were caught But you told me it was cool I used to sneak you in my house after school Locked up in my room everything else I would ignore Not knowing that my brothers and sisters were sitting by the door I felt like a whore a cheap prostitute When I tried to sober up you would say boy aint no God in you And sometimes I think that she’s right Been training for 3 years beat down in each fight Within our final years you must of knew what was gonna happen Cuz instead of the loving insults you started attacking You fogged up my brain so much so I had to quit rapping Twisted up my train of thought you were straight jappin Caught up in your evil web so tragic I don’t know how you did it but you convinced me to leave Candace Grabbed your lip gloss called it black magic Kissed me saying it would get better, but you left me stranded And that’s when I finally snapped Stuck in the dessert to long and that was the straw that broke the camels back I thought about keeping quiet but what would that do Gotta expose you do what I’m spose to I’m tell the whole world about you and shatter your appeal Flip the game on you girl hows it feel This song is dedicated to the women who brought the worst out of me Rest in peace Madam Web AKA Pornography

Whats heaven to me/ A place where all the lil kids could chill and run free/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where the youth have no use for dope or weed/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where lil girls knew the true meaning of love/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where lil boys grew up not wanting to thug/ Its loving the fact that I’m still here/ Paradise is so far away but God I’m still here/ The haze has risen but the road is still clear/ It’s ridding the world of things that instill fear/ Lil girls knew the true meaning of love/ And not the fad that got’em shakin fast upin the club/ And its knowin that I did the best that I could/ Using the gifts that God gave me while still keeping it hood/ Its going outside and feeling the breeze/ And every kid feels rejoice instead of feeling like me/ Lil boys’ll stop chopping the key/ And I can wave hi to the other side without them poppin at me/ It’s living life without disease or death/ With no need for weed or meth/ And its seeing Norma alive/ Because I really haven’t been acting the same since that day I heard that Norma died/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where serenity could pause the coming of stress/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where people fell in love without the pressures of sex Whats heaven to me/ A place where talent isn’t over looked by record execs / Whats heaven to me/ A place where ya skill is what determinates your height of success / It’s knowing the fact that we made it/ The temptation was great but we’ve waited/ It’s waiting on the time of the lord/ And it’s not touching eachother to even the score/ It’s respecting the boundaries placed with-in lovers/ And men aren’t generalized cuz of their skin color/ Not getting frisked in the middle of night/ Because they think that’s its wrong that my fiancé is white/ And it’s being able to walk down the block/ Without any static from these prejudges cops/ It know that people still in love with the rapping/ And not these record labels overlooking the talent/ Sign the real skill and not these rappers who phony/ Using the gift that god gave them and taking the glory/ That’s why I flow under anonyms/ Cuz a star is a star even when the sun is still dominant/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where your sin didn’t label you a slave or a master/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where everybody paid attention and they listen to pastor/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where I’m a caring individual and a suitable husband/ Whats heaven to me/ A place where all of us are equal and no one is passing out judgment/ It’s knowing the fact that I’m me/ And temptation hasn’t rendered me weak cuz I’m free/ It’s knowing that I’m one heck of a man/ Where the church is a body and together we’ll stand/ It’s not feeling this anxiety creeping up on me/ Cuz that’s whats keeping me from fulfilling my calling/ And it’s learning how to balance my life/ Cuz I’m struggling juggling between my ministry and my wife/ And it’s being a wonderful father/ Providing everything for my sons and my daughters/ Cuz when they mess up I’m prolly gone slaughter/ But how can I when even I’ve falter/ It’s investing my time with youth/ And putting my father’s teaching to use/ A place where we can all have faith in the mist of despair/ Instead of stuck here wishing we there that’s heaven to me/

Verse 1 This goes out to every women who be holding their own Honored to be grinding for the king on the throne Never superficial they allergic to the stardom She’ll be Mary in a World full of Marthas When its time to study scripture she digs deeper than most She captivated my Ester not gucci, or coach She’s not impressed by the rollz In a world full of jokers every King needs his Queen or he’s just gonna fold She not running around dating every boy that she meets A God fearing women doesn’t take’em under the sheets Dirty as Nomads When others girls are looking up Ballerz & Shot Callerz shes looking up boazz A husband like that has given her hope She understands Proverbs Chapter 12 verse 4 A wife is a noble character together they’ll grow I’ve had the best of both worlds so trust me I know Verse 2 I take a look at our women I see them in crisis Forgotten that God has labeled them priceless And what I’m bout to say is super sad but it’s true A man’s opinion is determined by the things that you do Do you make time in the day for reading your bible Or do you walk around promiscuous like Nelly Furtado Are you a good testimony humble and wise Or do you play mind games showing your thighs Are speaking God’s truth or are you living a lie Hypnotized by the guys and the different cars that they drive Are content with God’s work or are you flipping the table You want a crown of Glory or Beyonce’s Halo It’s flattery when fellas chase you With these broken record pick up line don’t let’em play you Due to your faith others will hate you Man will let you down but God will pick you up cuz he’s faithful bridge Women of God keep ya head up I know sick of the world I know your fed up Somedays you wanna give up everything But you gotta remember you’re the daughter of a King Women of God keep ya head up I know sick of the world I know your fed up Someday you wanna give up everything But you gotta remember you’re the daughter of a King Verse 3 Women of God keep ya head up I know sick of the world I know your fed up Somedays you wanna give up everything But you gotta remember you’re the daughter of a King Women of God keep ya head up I know sick of the world I know your fed up Someday you wanna give up everything But you gotta remember you’re the daughter of a King You gotta be crown for your husband Fidelity killing my brothers and sisters so make sure you love’em Thru good times and the bad ones When he’s ballin out of control and when he has none When he’s as healthy as a horse and sick as a dog In every season of his life even if he falls Gotta look pass the circumstances Reflective love hun give’em 2nd chances And if you cant learn to love’em then you should leave’em Your priceless in the eyes of God so you don’t need’em Starving for attention treat’em Only reason women believe’em is cuz of the garbage he feed’em I know a man that’ll never hurt you Made you finer than dinner but he’ll never desert you Respects your decision about church to Dude knows that you’re a blessing so he’ll never curse you He understands that beauty is vein And that a God fearing women is what should be praise Doesn’t trip on your past its was just a phase Realizes I love you isn’t a phrase If you have or haven’t been scathed Then I pray your soul stay saved And I’ll be the example put my queen on it Told me if I liked then I had to put a ring on it

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth But over centuries they tried to abolish his worth Try to acknowledge the hurt From Adam to Seth MacFarlane many have tried denying his works The world painted us with the colors of hatred Cuz I tried to tell’em bout a King who aint came yet They say I’m to spiritual a bigot in his creed A fool for believing in this Abrahamic Seed Sometimes I wonder how Paul felt With a Macedonian Man calling on him for help Guided thru the classes speaking to the masses Scaling different obstacles on the road to Damascus True we are always getting bashed in Christians have definitely failed in the past and I can see why the world thinks God is absent But it still doesn’t nullify our passion It’s been said that if you following the Christ You’ll loose everything you own in this life But ownership is nothing when theres nothing to obtain Sad to say but some people aint getting thru the gates Cuz to the world life is sex drugs n money And when I tell’em bout Christ they be looking at me funny They tell me I’m a dummy for believing in the preacher ….haha…ok then lets dig alil deeper 1777 congress spent 300 thousands So colonist could have Bibles by the mountains They were on a mission The first universities founded in America were Christian The first Harvard seemed to think It was best to invest in John 17:3 So please don’t say that Christians are evil Don’t blame God for the actions of people

Dear lord onto you I give worship and praise You guided me when I was lost your cross helped me find my way You’re the one who blessed me with the ability to harness this power You’re the one who comforts me inside of my darkest hour From the moment I was born I knew that you chose me As long as you by my side I can never be lonely The love you show your peoples without equal 2nd to none And we don’t deserve it god but thanks for sending down your only son My abba daddy thanks for filling me with patience and grace Everytime I think about how you saved me tears run down my face Cuz you could of walked away from the pain but you had a purpose And people still judged you even though you were perfect I can picture Mary down on her knees saying a prayer Crying out to the lord why did you have to pick my son to be the savior Cuz of your mercy God I chose to right this song Cuz many don’t understand that this man didn’t plan to live this long I am nothing without you In your love my life is made complete I am nothing without Lord I find my rest in you Lord plz accept my offering with an embracing gesture Your blessings can’t be measure worth more than a buried treasure Praising you 24/7 in heaven will be my pleasure Rivers of living water is what I’m looking for when I’m in the desert My blood and tears on this song is what I’ve come to bring A gifted uplifted evangelist is what I’ve come to be If you wanna be sanctified then confess your sins Stick with God and I promise that you will always win Cuz being with hims like a drug its so addicting Everything impure inside my lifes getting evicted so listen Thanks to him I can see another day I aint perfect but when I die I hope that angle finds my name Many times these streets should of took my life But that night on Calvary you paid the ultimate price So for those who say he died in vain I say he didn’t Cuz 1 cross plus 3 nails always equals forgiven I am nothing without you In your love my life is made complete I am nothing without Lord I find my rest in you You took all my addictions and put them to the side You helped cuz I couldn’t stop no matter how hard I tried As a believer I gotta show others your love Violence answers nothing but it resolves so much That the mentality I had as a young buck I felt like everyday was made to bring me bad luck But that’s all changed I rebuke the spirit of despair Cuz when I’m down I call onto your name and you are there You’ve given me everything that I want everything that I need Blessed me with a gift that surpassed all of my dreams I can do all things thru Christ yes the one who strengthens me You don’t believe you must re read Philippians 4:13 I do my best to live like says in your word But I’m always gonna fail as long as I’m still on earth So lord release the spirit that comforts and let it flow And all strongholds in this place now have to go I am nothing without you In your love my life is made complete I am nothing without Lord I find my rest in you

First I would like to start off with an apology For the way I been acting these last few years cuz honestly It aint been the same since it all went down Went away to College came back from school and now no ones around Wow see I never thought things would change But I’m afraid I was wrong in a major way If you haven’t noticed I’ve burring a lot of pain Sad thing is even after I’m done with this song nothings gonna really change So if you will allow me to go and set the record straight That way you’ll know exactly what this record aint Im in no way saying that I hate the church I just hate the sacrifices we made to make it work God gave it birth I wonder would we have still been down If we knew then what we know now cuz this is wild Main it hurt this thing in which we’ve invested My parents get pulled from 100 directions And I guess as kids we must of missed the message Amen its all good long as the churches gets its blessing right? I can recall late nights fist fights Something in my spirit just aint sit right Lord whys my parents why you gotta use them They say I sound selfish, huh, yeah ok talk to me after you loose them People always tripping say my characters flawed Real quick to point the finger, it’s ok my parents are gone Shout out to moms and pops No love lose I know you are just following God You’ve been given a job commissioned and it must be finished I just wish things were a lil different Wish they didn’t call you every time someone was trippin Or everytime one of their children decided not to listen I wish you could enjoy dinner with your kids without the phone ringing off the hook and leaving out of the kitchen I wish people loved as much as you loved them Prayed for you like you’ve done them But it seems to me that all they do is speak bad about the 2 people that are always there to help them I wish they could see how much yall pray and intercede Instead they focus on the areas in which you lack, sounds shady to me But either way it doesn’t matter cuz yall are beyond passionate And only your children know how far your passion gets But the fact of matter is they will never really know what its like to be a Pastors Kid The many sacrifices that had to be made to keep on going Different ministers acting crazy hating cuz we keep on growing Different families feel they have the right to criticize That little light of mine used to shine bright but I find it hard to keep it glowing And I love when people tell me hold up, stay focused Lying on our ministry till there are caught in the act and they froze up Mami, Papi, Bryan Dana and me aint chose this it chose us But it’s ok and to those who said they wanted to stone us, I’m standing right here, gone pick that stone up They think cuz im the son of a pastor That everything is sweet and that fills me with laughter Cuz while they deal with addictions and rebellion We deal with legions, demons, and hellions The type of attacks yall face aint got nothing on the ones that we are faced with Every week it’s a battle and sometimes we need spiritual facelifts Cuz it hurts seeing the people love hooked onto drugsbut get saved Turn away backslide and then blame it on the Pastor for not preaching a certain way Kinda lame and they say my ways are secular yall Just remember we came 2nd to yall And im in no way shape or form saying my parents are bad Never that they are the best thing a kid like me could ever of had So mom and pop if I’ve offended you I didn’t mean to I just realized I gotta share you with different people Some of the love you some of them hate you and some of them could really carless They don’t come to work or grind for the kingdom they only care if there blessed And that’s what I struggle with keeping it real This isn’t a diss to anybody Im just letting you know how I feel So after hearing this I pray you see me different Im not just a kid whose gifted with scripture spitten Im a human too and yes I have feelings Welcome to the first page of my diary I pray you keep reading

People tell me im blessed cuz my parents are Pastors/ I try to say thanks but then I feel like an actor/ Always been an open book but I’ve hidden this chapter/ Written with Tears, Blood, & Betrayal disguised them with laughter/ It’s never easy talking bout a topic like this/ Cuz when the truth is revealed someones bound to get pist/ Many don’t understand the path that we walk/ Yet their quick to judge us without understanding our thoughts/ Pointing out every flaw/ But the moment something crazy happens to one of their babys whos the 1st one they call/ They’ve treated my Parents they’ve got it the worst/ Sometimes man it hurts then I wonder why they even at church/ They’ve been cussed-out and neglected, mugged-out and rejected/ Then im spose to stand here without grabbing a weapon/ True sometimes I react then their embarrassed/ I don’t care I take it personal when they mess with my parents/ HOOK I’m sorry momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry but tonight im cleaning out my closet I’m sorry father I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry but tonight im cleaning out my closet You know what the hardest with the life that we live/ Dealing with the fact that nobody gives a crap that we are their kids/ Theres been time where I’ve had to get pulled from the building/ Lord knows I wanted to grabb’em take’em outside just to kill’em/ A lot of men look and lust after my mother/ What kind of feelings you think that brings to my lil sisters and brothers/ People look at me crazy like (why do you always seemed bother)/ Cuz that women right there is only here trying to sleep with my father/ Ooppss….here I go getting angry again/ If you don’t like it shut your mouth and just pray for me then/ When my parents got hit only a couple people were there/ But the rest left and started gossiping in the air/ 12 Many hear what I write and say that it’s strange/ A lot of guys are still alive cuz of God’s grace/ And I aint tryna scare nobody you know where I am/ This is me guarding my heart the best way that I can/ Now I would never diss people just to get recognition/ Take a second to listen who you think this record is dissin/ But put yourself in my position, try to envision/ A bunch of hateful people abusing your parents and claiming their Christian/ Spitting wishing they would just fall/ But you can’t touch God’s anointed remember David and Saul/ I used to have evil intentions Praise God that there Gone/ Feelin like the homey before his conversion to Paul/ I have been delivered from resorting to violence/ But your stupid if you think I’m just gonna stand here in silence/ Took me a while but I’m getting it now/ Vengeance is yours Lord I just pray I’m around/ Different Pastors coming through pretending to work/ But behind the scenes their here prostituting our church/ 6bars Planning a conference without asking permission/ Then using the Pastor of house without paying commission/ Coming to my house and rebuking my father/ Stop looking over here and start watching your daughter/ Because life isn’t easy when your always at war/ Forget about my plank and be careful of the forest in yours/